Monday May 24, 2010

I didn’t realize this but 818 took this photo of Brody and I dancing. I am so glad now you can see how huge he is compared to me.

Nikki Benz and Lisa Ann were in the San Diego offices today doing webcam for Naughty America so I wore my offensive Canada shirt since Nikki is Canadian. Bonus that it was Victoria Day.

I had a meeting with Lisa Ann today and she asked me to go on the road with her this summer as her roadie! I don’t think that means I have to kick anyone’s ass, it just means that I help her out with stuff that she needs while she is feature dancing at clubs. She has a regular woman who does it but she is so freaking busy that she is burning her out. This is how it’s going to work: we fly into a city, she dances 3 or 4 shows per night, I help her deal with the fans and the 8×10 signing after the shows, we go to bed, we wake up, hit the gym, sightsee, eat, sightsee more, take naps, blog, dinner, hit the club again. Rinse. Repeat for 5 days. Hang on a second? You are going to take me to Vegas, Memphis (hello Graceland!) and Greensboro, NC… PAY ME….and pay my travel expenses? Are you joking? Of course I’m in! Christian is pissed, he’s been begging her for this gig for years. ha! So yeah, my summer is going to be ridiculously fun and busy and I cannot wait! I get to check Tennessee off my new bucket list.

Chris and Rich came over tonight to watch the season finale of 24 and I have to say, it almost brought me to tears. First of all, I cannot watch someone else cry without crying and watching Chloe O’Brien choke up made me sad. I have been watching this show since the very first season when my ex-bf at the time was invited to participate in a evalution for the pilot. They had this friend who would always call our house and ask random questions to see if we qualified to participate in a research group AND get paid! “Are you a male who smokes who travels at least 4 times per year for business?” “Are you a female between the age of 20-25 who is a vegetarian?”  You get the idea. One time my roommate was paid to go bar hopping with a disposable camera to take pictures of whatever he felt like while he was out drinking. Really? Oh that isn’t right up my alley or anything. Sadly, I never qualified for any of them, but Devin was introduced to 24 before it was even on TV and got me excited about it. So Jack did not die and they left it open for a movie. But what are they going to call the movie? “2″?

Side note… If you have been watching the show for years you remember Edgar Styles. That fat guy with the lisp. Chloe and her awesome personality disorder would call him at his desk…

Edgar: “Edgar Styles here.” (**with lisp**)

Chloe: “Yeah Edgar I know it’s you, I called you.”

So I think that this is hilariously funny to do to people when they identify themselves as they pick up the phone. My co-worker Frank used to do that all the time. “Frank here.” “Yes Frank, I know that this is you because I fucking called you.”

Again, it’s the little things that amuse me.

I leave you with 2 quotes today.

One from 4 Hour Work Week by Tim Ferriss… “Why would I save all of my option for living for the end to find out that life has just passed me by?”

Another from a book called Crush It  by Gary Vaynerchuck …”How do you know when you have built a community? When one person is listening.”

(I haven’t been writing about my workouts because it’s still inconsistent. UGH. I did Bikram only twice last week and went to the gym only 3 times. I frustrate myself sometimes. If I keep talking about it here maybe I will force myself to not be flaky. Please call me out if you think I am not working out.)

Wednesday April 21, 2010

[I was back at the gym today and it felt good. I weigh 142 lbs. I will keep you updated on my weight loss/gain because if I can manage to lose weight and still eat what I eat then I must write a book and make millions.]

I woke up today feeling an enormous amount of anxiety about my decision to quit Naughty America. I know that some days will just be like that, but today for some reason it was just really getting me worried. I was second guessing if it was a bad move to leave a steady, secure, well paying job. My vacation is over, I spent a bunch of money on equipment and laptops recently and was freaking out when I checked my bank statement. All day long I was feeling anxious and was consumed with thoughts of doubt. I got a nice email from a someone who has always supported me in this business who thinks very highly of me and I gotta tell ya, the email came on just the right day. I needed to hear the words of encouragement that he gave me and definitely lifted my spirits. (One thing he said was “Please give some thought to self-employment.  It’s not for everyone, but the people who choose this direction in their lives — and do it well — are rewarded with something much greater that the wealth they accumulate.  They get freedom, which is an incredibly exhilarating asset”)  I read a book last fall called “The 4- Hour Work Week” by Timothy Ferriss and he explains that you should imagine yourself in the worst possible situation and then understand that it still will not be that bad. My anxiety problem was not getting any better while I sat and watched 4 hours of Jack Bauer kicking some ass on 24.

I went over to Joe and Vanessa’s for a bottle of wine and to catch up. Vanessa’s dog Kali is not so sure about my lens. Her little tongue is so cute.

Dang look at that beak!

In closing on this fairly uneventful day, I want to share a video that’s circulating around the net right now of a drunk guy at Coachella, a huge music festival in Palm Springs. You might have already seen it. Dear Lord, I hope I have never been this wasted in public and I hope that I never do get like this and end up on YouTube. Watch til the end. (I just realized that they actually have this video on their website, too! I bet he feels like a total a hole. It’s awesome.)